Friday, June 4, 2010

Hanging out with Jessica and Ariella right now... in World History!!!yay!! yuck.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Worries

I know that you know when I stare.
When your smile fades,
it worries me deeply.

When I look away, I wonder.
I'm just confused and quiet
just like I used to be.

You don't budge, and i don't either.

When my eyes meet yours
(though they rarely do)
my heart starts racing.

Is that love?
Or the process of my heart breaking?

Thank you.

Thank you for breaking my heart then leaving it there, in quiet, sad, useless despair. I WAS using it, to give me warmth when I thought about you- now I sit cold and quiet, like my heart. I think of you as, well, this floor that holds me up above all else- not wanting me to take part in love, warn=mth, and life.

Happy

What do you do if your happy but for the wrong reasons? Or maybe for the right reasons. I don't know. I'm confused. %)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


NO REALLY I DON'T WANT IT ANYMORE. SO DOES SOMEBODY WANT TO USE A USED AND POTENTIALLY BROKEN HEART

Black & White

Tell me what it's like
to dream in Black & White.

Tell me what it's like
to wander in the night

Tell me what it's like
to fight a losing fight

Tell me what it's like
to have a futture and a life.

THIS CAN SOMETIMES BE MY HEART. SOMETIMES. USUALLY. BUT IM NOT A DEPRESSING PERSON. PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME BY MY POETRY. :)

The Test.

Did you ever take a test? I did. Did you ever take a risk? I did. Did you ever lie? I did. Did you ever regret it? I did. Did you ever do it twice? I did.

Happiness or...

Is it true? What they say about happiness-does it last long? Does it feel good? Does your heart start racing? Do you belive it so much that you can almost touch it? Or is that love? Don't ask me...I wouldn't know.

Darkness...

The tears were falling. the mood was dying. The light was nowhere to be seen. She walked. Stepping slowly unto nothing. She falls. Falling, falling silently. No one hears her. She sees light, not life light though.

Goodbye

Do my eyes deceive me? Is he really leaving? No. It can't be...or I'll cry my eyes out. No-Goodbye. NO! I'll reach over and he'll be there, it's a dream-Goodbye. Wakeup! I can't take it. The dream becomes reality, even though it already was. Goodbye. NO, I won't allow it, I'll turn around and he'll be there. I do. He's not. Don't leave. He does. Good. I give up, goodbye.